Downplay and Demonize

It’s not your reality

Don’t tell me why I should ignore it

Generational trauma unknown

Fueling toxins and flames

Compounding caustic chi

As everything becomes more of a lie

Yet you all keep on saying:

“I don’t care as long as it doesn’t happen to me” (You [Karen]…)

“It was a long time ago”

“It doesn’t count, and let it go”

“They didn’t mean it”

Shut it

The petrol pouring over my brain must stop

As several echoes of people I haven’t seen in years continue to tell me my opinion only matters 3/5th as much as yours

Even if I know I’m right despite being told I was wrong my whole life

Some books I read recently and my current reading preferences

Yes, I actually read books. What? Did some of you only think I watched movies or anime series? Please slap yourself if you ever thought that about me. No, I’m not talking about manga or comics. I mean actual books. I haven’t read a fictional book in over a year. I’ve been reading a lot of history and non-fiction books. While I don’t consider myself a genius, I’m not an idiot, and I actually know things or, at the very least, am willing to learn something new.

Here are some books I read over the past several months or so.

Black and British and The Kaiser’s Holocaust by David Olusoga: I thought I would talk about two separate books by the same author. I was more familiar with David Olusoga’s documentary work, but I didn’t know he wrote books. Black and British was a fascinating history of Black British culture for centuries. It covered not only Windrush, but slavery, one of the first Black British communities in Liverpool (some families can trace their family back to the early 18th century), and notable people with various contributions. The Kaiser’s Holocaust is about the Namibian Genocide by the German government, which was the first genocide of the 20th century. David Olusoga directed the Namibian Genocide & The 2nd Reich BBC documentary, which I strongly recommend and is has a lot of the exact facts of German colonization, severed skulls being sent to Germany, the first usage of concentration camps in Shark Island, and the direct and indirect Nazi connections with both the 2nd and 3rd Reichs such as General Franz Ritter von Epp being the most damning example since he hired and inspired a then-unknown Adolf Hitler not long after his malicious tour of that part of Africa.

The Iceman Inheritance by Michael Bradley: This was a recent read that I found out about on a podcast. It was a shocking history book that goes back to prehistoric times about the roots of racism in Europe, whether it was the harsh climate they lived in during the ice ages or millennia after the fact. Also, this was written by a white guy from Canada, so don’t freak out at me about that. There were so many implications with cited sources how it permeated from a cultural and educational standpoint that led to racism, sexism, colonization, etc.

MFIT Magazines (Many Faces In Teaching) and Decolonizing the Curriculum by Dr. Marie Charles: These publications have been quite eye-opening. Dr. Charles is a very talented educator and historian from England, and she’s been doing a fantastic job with her research. The MFIT series is an ongoing history project that shows the African antecedence connecting that continent to ancient Europe from millennia ago using comparative linguistics, archaeology, and artifacts, to name a few, and it’s been peer-reviewed. After discovering about the Cheddar Man in Somerset, I became intrigued to learn more about this ancient history that doesn’t get talked about since you had Pangaea, for example. It has been absolutely mind-blowing such as seeing Black royalty on old coins or seeing comparisons between an Irish artifact with a white mask on the eyes with the Nzu mask in the Igbo culture. Decolonizing the Curriculum should be canon in the educational field as it uses strategies for teaching multi-ethnic populations while also bringing up so many good points about why it’s essential.

Caliban’s Reason by Paget Henry: This was the last complete book I read, and it was an excellent deconstruction of William Shakespeare’s The Tempest. Paget Henry is an Antiguan historian and professor who calls out the play’s pro-colonial and pro-slavery implications while making parallels to eurocentric education with how melanated voices are silenced or questioned at all times. Even the etymology of Caliban was disturbing because it’s an anagram of the Spanish word for the Indigenous Carib tribe: Canibal! Yes, that’s literally where the word “Cannibal” comes from, and it added to this imagery of thinking that Black and Native people are automatically “savages” in the European eyes, and they see them as beats that need to be killed or tamed at all costs. It’s also interesting how Shakespeare seems to get a pass for implications like that or how Othello had blackface even centuries after the bard existed, but that’s a story for another day…

How Music Dies (Or Lives) by Ian Brennan: I hate the music scene sometimes. Ian Brennan gave me more reasons to do so, but in a good way. This author is actually a music producer who has gone to several countries to record various bands and musicians authentically. He brings up how the term “world music” has problematic implications, how pop music has taken over the world, how people in the West (especially Americans) fear listening to music that isn’t in English, or how there’s audio colonization of sorts. It has exposed me to several musicians around the world, and he had good intentions instead of acting like some white savior since even he admits that he’s still learning and isn’t trying to be some hero. I was sick of all these first-world problem bands, not just in pop, but pop punk and metalcore, for example. A lot of the people Ian Brennan recorded come from poverty, war, genocide, and other atrocities, and it makes those bands look like the spoiled brats they are!

So what have you all read lately?

The Proud Family Actually Mentioned Reparations?!?

Disney did something that legitimately shocked and surprised me. One of their cartoons actually had the nerve to mention reparations and calling white supremacy by name in an episode! This isn’t any irony or satire. I’m legitimately dumbfounded that the Mickey Mouse corporation would try that for one of their shows. In this case, it’s the new iteration of The Proud Family. I saw the original version of that show when I was a kid, and I had mixed feelings about it. While it was good to show a Black family that’s not from the ghetto, and there were some funny moments, I wasn’t a fan of showing Oscar Proud (the dad) as a buffoon or how his wife Trudy suffered from protagonist-centered morality partially because of her getting away with things men can’t get away with in fiction or real life, but that’s a rant for another day. In the sequel/remake Louder and Prouder, they actually did an episode where Penny and her friends have a moment talking about Juneteenth, systemic racism, slavery, and the other original sins of America. Not surprisingly enough, you have racist idiots in and out of the Disney fanbase outraged. If people had their jimmies rustled by Halle Bailey playing Ariel, then this episode would’ve given people heart attacks. I saw the clip in this news video, and even someone who’s a prominent critic of Disney didn’t see any lies told. If anyone has a problem with what was said, then they’re bigots, and they probably use the word “woke” as a dog whistle.

Don’t get me wrong, having an episode addressing reparations and white supremacy doesn’t mean I’m getting myself a Disney+ account. They have to do a lot more to show me they don’t want to do any anti-Black racist crap, and they still have to answer to different things they’ve done instead of being selective at best. Sure, they’ll own up to the portrayals of the crows in Dumbo, but they haven’t dropped the trademark of THAT Swahili phrase or credited Solomon Linda, for example. I would like to call this moment from The Proud Family a start, but I’m still skeptical about it. With that said, this moment proves me right even more that you have racist imbeciles in the Disney fandom, and they need to be called out.

Also, reparations aren’t a handout. They are a debt owed to the descendants of those who built this country with their unpaid labor. However, if you have no issues with Ukrainians and Afghans getting money but have a problem with the possibility of American descendants of slaves getting cash payments, then you’re a hypocrite.

Delayed Venting Wishes For This Year

I’m busy working hard in my personal life, but I’m tired of all the times people put me down over the years or seeing people getting away with things they really should have no business having carte blanche for. It sucks having to bottle up everything while others have tantrums and don’t get called out for their attitudes. Here we go…

It would be nice if my successes would outweigh the suffering I’ve been through and would shut up those who doubted me.

It would be great if the hypocrisy of the fandoms I’ve seen backfires against them. Especially certain issues involving intellectual property, cultural appropriation, and citing sources to name a few.

If karma exists, it would be good if a blogger who gaslighted me and claimed that they don’t care about anything or anyone unless it affects them or someone like them gets a dose of reality, and their narcissism will be exposed.

I hope a specific seasonal program will burn out in a way where they will have no one but themselves to blame or that there’s a scandal that destroys the managers’ reputations because of something they did.

It would be amazing if some bands and singers I knew would fail in their craft and their negative aspects will be made clear to the world.

I want to live better than those who bullied me, and I want my doubters to admit that I was right about particular things despite them questioning me.

I hope aspects of real history like ancient histories unspoken and various atrocities will come to the light where people are forced to acknowledge these events.

Those are a few thoughts I had.

Anti-Black Propaganda Videos for Incoming Immigrants to America? I’m (sadly) not surprised.

Miss me? I haven’t been blogging a lot, but I just found a story worth talking about.

A video has been making the rounds of an African immigrant to America (presumably from Egypt) talking about how she and others saw a video while in the immigration process about Black Americans being shown as evil and all criminals. She claims that this is all by Caucasians in the Department of Immigration while also claiming she didn’t know about slavery or Civil Rights until after she was already in America. While she’s not wrong about how it was “them folks” making this propaganda to her and others (why would the melanated people in America make propaganda about themselves?), but I did find it odd that she didn’t know about those atrocities. Unless she was from a remote region without the internet, computers, or smartphones, I can’t see how she wouldn’t know about this stuff in this day and age. I don’t expect her to know everything because even Americans aren’t taught about everything, but she should’ve at least done some basic Google searches to learn some of the basics at minimum. I’m also glad Phil brought up the point that Black America didn’t go and colonize her and others’ homelands, steal their resources, or violate their people en masse, so why are Black Americans the bad guys worldwide when we didn’t collectively do these things?

It’s some food for thought.

2023 Thoughts

I haven’t posted on here that much. I feel this specific blog has been all over the place and doesn’t have an identity anymore, but you already knew. That. It’s time I need to find a reason for this blog to be better and to retool whatever creative stuff I do. Don’t expect too many posts until I figure stuff out.

For something more positive, I’m going to wonder if this whole “manifestation” thing actually works and mention some hopes I have for this year. I want to work on these things for stuff I can control.

-Get fluent in two languages besides English. I want to be able to have conversations in other languages.

-Travel at least once this year (I haven’t been traveling since COVID).

-Work on several creative projects in multiple fields that I won’t say what they’re about now.

-Check out live events based on some of my hobbies/interests, such as a Windies game and/or an indie BritWres show.


For things I don’t have control over, I hope these things can happen.

-People taking me seriously with my skills, talents, and intelligence (not that I’m a genius or close to it).

-Being successful with the creative works that I make.

-Others not being able to counter-attack any arguments I make because everything is well-constructed and watertight, especially when it comes to antecedents in culture and source material.

-Any information I find out and bring up to people is able to change minds for the better.

-I hope those who have screwed me over and gaslighted me are forced to apologize to me and own up to their wrongdoings for what they did.

-In my personal life, I will drastically progress in my skills, and I’m seen as someone who’s an excellent team member where I’m at right now in life.


Those are the positive examples I can think of. Maybe I can make another post about other hopes, but this will involve venting.

A Random, Yet Meaningful Wish/Rant.

Laiti watu wengi zaidi wangetambua kwamba si Afrika yote inaonekana kama misitu, vibanda vya udongo, maeneo ya vita, umaskini, au Pride Rock.

Sorry I haven’t been in this blog a lot. It’s not that I don’t care. I’m still trying to balance everything in my life.

Belated 6th Anniversary!

I got this notice last week and I’ve been blogging for 6 years. Hooray! Even though I strayed from the path of what this blog was originally for, it’s good that I’ve kept on going so far. Thank you to all who support me.

Whoopi Goldberg, you’re despicable for defending Carolyn Bryant!

If there was any news involving Carolyn Bryant, I wanted to cover it. I did hear about that Till movie coming out this year, but I didn’t want to make any mention of it until the movie was released. However, warning signs went off when I saw that Whoopi Goldberg was cast to play Emmett Till’s grandmother.

Once I heard about this story where Whoopi opened her mouth about this atrocity, I just HAD to talk about it. Trust me, Candace Owens and Kanye West haven’t been the only ones selling out in a hardcore fashion with that infamous Paris Fashion Show stunt, but this case is just as appalling.

Whoopi said that Carolyn Bryant doesn’t need to be in jail and should just admit to what she did.

ARE. YOU. FREAKING. SERIOUS?!?!?! This is low even for you! I’m not expecting her to be some major activist, but I know she knows better. I’m glad Phil used the example of the Jewish community not forgiving Nazis and how they are still getting locked up despite being centenarians even this year, so how on earth could Whoopi or any sane person defend what this murderer did. She was responsible for a lynching, got others to kill Emmett, admitted she was lying about being harassed or assaulted, and never spent a day in jail for her crimes. Now the mainstream media is going to use Whoopi’s comment as a rhetorical dodge and encourage people to forgive her. I’m not like her, so I’m definitely going to call her out. She doesn’t represent me, and she certainly doesn’t represent the Till family. I’m definitely not going to watch that Till movie, especially after this nonsense.

I’m not a fan of Whoopi Goldberg whether it’s her acting, stand-up, or her stuff on The View even though I don’t watch that show. She’s said and done stupid things, but this is the most offensive thing she’s done in her career so far. Keep in mind, this is the same person who defended the crows in the Dumbo movie and believed that they should’ve kept the “I Ain’t Seen No Elephant Fly” song let alone having the characters in the remake (even Tim Burton was smart enough NOT to include them). I’ve said this multiple times, but this bears repeating…the lead crow’s name is Jim! Speaking of Disney, this is also the same person who played a character while portraying Black stereotypes and using her “hood” voice. Yes, I’m obviously talking about Shenzi the hyena from The Lion King, but you knew I was going to make that potshot given the reputation I got here (I’m sure Carolyn Bryant thinks all Black people are like that character or the other hyenas). This is straight-up blasphemous what she did and I don’t see how any person could find what she said to be good.

Whoopi, you’re a godforsaken traitor for defending that white supremacist devil!

Random words you didn’t know had origins in African languages

My life has been very busy, but I thought I would squeeze in a little post of educational variety if any of you care. I find it interesting to find various etymologies and I want to be good at other languages besides English. You’d be surprised by some origins used in English alone.

Goober: It comes from the Kikongo word “Nguba” which means peanut.

Tango: You thought that was a Spanish word? Nope! It’s literally the Lingala and Kikongo word for “time”. When the slaves were in Argentina and Uruguay, some of them were from the Congo and remembered some of their musical and dance traditions. Those moments would be addressed as “Kongo ya tango” which means Congo time in those languages.

Safari: It’s not just about a specific kind of tourism or environment. That comes from the Swahili word for “travel”.

Voodoo: That form of magic is an Anglicized version of the Ewe (pronounced Ye-we, a language spoken in Togo, Benin, and some parts of Ghana) word Vodo which means “spirit” or “ghost”.

Okra: That food comes from the Igbo word Okuru.

Jenga: I’m sure you all have played that game with the wooden blocks at some point, right? The name of the game comes from “Kujenga” which means “to build” in Swahili. I legitimately didn’t know that until weeks ago!

See, I don’t always have angry posts as of recently.