Ospreyshire Origins: Servile Fear/Theophobia

Here’s something new that I’m going to do for this blog. I’m going to call this type of post Ospreyshire Origins. These posts will be about inspirations for certain songs or general things about the Ospreyshire project. For my first post of this nature, I’m going to talk about the second song from my debut EP called Servile Fear/Theophobia.

It’s really two short poems I made, but their themes clicked so well.

The servile fear portion deals with my fear which can even be borderline paranoid where I feel like no matter what I do, it’s a sin in some way. The times where I did the right thing doesn’t get acknowledged, but whenever I screw up, I feel like I’ve become the devil incarnate with others yelling at me for my shortcomings. I’ve never seen others get the same treatment as I, but I may have sounded solipsistic in saying so which I do apologize.

The Theophobia portion is literally how I’ve viewed God over the years. Theophobia literally means an irrational fear of God. Yes, I’m going to be talking about some religious/spiritual elements which could turn off some readers, but this plays a big role in this track. I’ve heard both sides of Christians viewing God as this loving deity which I try to believe, but I’ve also seen other believers criticizing and judging me for what I do. I’ve wondered which “God” is truly real: the loving one or the judgmental one? This logic has led others to go to different religions or even become atheists in the process. Can’t say I blame them for their decisions if they’ve been burned by Christians or any other practitioners of other religions who’ve bullied them.

-Curtis

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2 thoughts on “Ospreyshire Origins: Servile Fear/Theophobia

  1. For your conclusion, it is not, perhaps for us to “blame them” so much as fear falling into the same predicament, when it is not what others say nor believe which is the truth, but rather what the Scriptures themselves declare. We stand before Him either in the LORD Jesus Christ, or not, I believe, don’t we? Where, then, are the generally erroneous doctrines of men? Thank you very much for this explanation, I appreciated it.

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