I really do care
Sadly, it shows more on my blogs than in real life most of the time
Whenever I see or research injustice
I had to talk about it
Whenever my anger shows
I’m told to calm down
Sorry for actually giving a crap about what’s happening in the world.
I’m not just some random DIY author, film critic, poet, or avant-garde composer on the net
I see myself as a human being first and foremost
Wouldn’t be diminishing to suppress my emotions?
I guess people want me to be a robot or a zombie
Perhaps I care too much
Enough to fume on a blog or raise my voice
I guess my volume elevating is more threatening
Than violent people outside the jails
I shouldn’t have to be sorry for emoting while bombarding those with the truth
I’ve seen injustice
I’ve been a victim of it
For this, I won’t be sorry for making many people uncomfortable when I have to
I’ve been silenced and my emotions have nowhere else to go
It’s a miracle I haven’t been trolled for facts and opinions on here and other platforms
My anger isn’t a sin.
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ospreyshire, express your anger and frustration every chance you get. Not doing so may cause you to implode or explode. Doing so will definitely cause you pain and sadness. There are many people invested in you feeling pain and sadness.
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Thanks, Kreb. I’ve had issues of internalizing a lot of my anger and sadness for the longest time, to be honest with you. It’s certainly showed up in some of my posts in low-key ways. I won’t let anyone be invested in my pain and sadness. I appreciate you encouraging me.
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My pleasure.
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Sure. Thank you so much. I have to keep telling myself not to bottle up everything.
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Hello ospreyshire. Never fear using your voice. The world needs more people willing to speak out. Hugs
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Thank you, Scottie. That’s something I was afraid of most of my life, but I’ve been getting better at expressing himself.
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I totally get these feelings. Virtual hugs? I’ll send those to you, sure, but also please take this virtual punching bag and beat it to pieces if you need to. There is nothing wrong with being angry.
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Thank you. Virtual hugs are accepted here. Virtual punching bags work, too. I know nothing made me angry today, but it’s something I wanted to vent since I have internalized it for so long. Recording my last EP based on those feelings helped a little.
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That’s great that you found something that helped. I think it’s good to keep expressing yourself.
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Yes. Blogging has been therapeutic for me for the past couple of years. I am happy to express myself in multiple blogs.
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I think that those of us who care, who rant and rail against the way things are, we make others uncomfortable. Perhaps because they are okay with the status quo, or perhaps because they don’t wish to be forced to pull their head out of the sand pit, or to take off the rose-coloured glasses. Or perhaps it is that they feel guilty because they are not doing anything, don’t know what to do. I have friends who hate my writing, meanwhile they are posting pictures of their lunch/dinner on Facebook, posting cute pics of their cute kids, chatting idly about their latest haircut, car repair, the 25th anniversary of their mother’s death and how they still miss her every day. And one day, they will wake up to find their comfy cozy little world has been upended, and they will say, “How did I not see this coming? Why did you not warn me?” Sigh.
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That’s something I’ve realized especially when I’ve been talking about more uncomfortable truths in real life. Some of those fears came in when I was blogging like when I started film reviews in one of my other blogs. I thought I would get death threats from my thoughts on Kimba the White Lion and Hate Crimes In the Heartland because I mention The Lion King plagiarizing the former and the Black Wall Street massacre respectively in those posts. That’s saying nothing about when I talk about racism or morbid news on here.
I can see people wanting to be so comfortable in their own little bubble while ignoring the horrors going on in the world. I couldn’t do that since I’m forced to face reality in multiple ways. How is it that people care more about the Sony/Disney fallout with Spider-Man than the Amazon rainforest burning? How is it that people care more about whatever new song Taylor Swift came out with than mass shootings? How is it that people care more about the PlayStation 5 leaks than institutionalized bigotry in America?
I’m sorry to hear about people giving you crap for your writings. I could see that happening once things get too hectic for them. Thanks for your comment.
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Exactly!!! People like the blinders they wear, for it allows them to ignore all the troubles and hope they will just ‘go away’. Those of us who try to rip their blinders off and force them to face reality are “the enemy”, we are suffering some ‘derangement syndrome’, or need to “get a life”. Sigh. I happen to be working on a post for this afternoon on that very thing … I’m trying hard to keep it from becoming a rant, but it isn’t easy.
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Thanks, Jill! I’m glad you understand. I was never someone who felt like they had to hide from reality. Given the bad things that have happened to me, I’m forced not to ignore what’s real. I hate it when people treat me like the enemy or that I should get a life. I’ll check out your post.
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My friend … there comes a point where you realize that those who treat you as an enemy, who turn against you for your beliefs, were not your friends in the first place. It’s a hard realization, and yes, it hurts, but eventually you come to the point that … you are who you are, you cannot be anyone or anything else, and if it isn’t good enough for some … it’s their loss.
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That’s something I realized a while ago. It was rough since some of them talked a good game and seemed genuine until their true nature showed. I wanted to be someone else and dealt with lots of self-hatred, but I’m slowly doing everything I can to love an appreciate myself.
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I have, since Trump entered the scene, lost friends I had worked with for 20 years, even family members I had known for 30-40 years. I thought I knew these people, thought they were good-hearted people without a racist bone in their bodies. And then along came Trump. Sigh. 😥 But, we must be true to ourselves, to our values, our humanity. Ultimately, I decided that I just don’t care anymore … if someone doesn’t like my politics … oh well. I live with my own conscience 24/7, and while I don’t claim to sleep well at night, it isn’t my conscience that keeps me awake … I’m comfortable in my own skin, and I think that’s important.
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I’m sorry to hear about that. I certainly lost friends that way. Even when Obama was about to be elected, I saw bigotry going on especially after he won. Trump certainly emboldened the racists in America. He’s not the main person, but rather a catalyst who revealed how bigoted America is on the inside. That’s their problem if they can’t take facts. I’m glad you’re comfortable in your own skin.
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Yes, I think that for the most part, it actually began when Obama was elected. The republican “tea party” movement began in 2009 as a direct result of the Obama presidency, and I believe the increase in bigotry we see today is also a direct result, or a ‘pushback’ as I have called it, against having an African-American president for 8 years. A sad statement of this nation, isn’t it?
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Of course. You had the Tea Party and the Birther movement (Who started that? Oh, right.) going on as reactions to Obama’s presidency. While I believe that Obama didn’t do enough for people who looked like his family (that’s a story for another day), those movements and those nasty insults to him and his family totally weren’t deserved. You can’t have a Trump without Obama, and I mean that because the open racists felt powerless despite still having power and privilege over everyone else because of their skin color. It truly is sad. I’m just glad you care about going against injustice here.
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Ah yes … how could I forget the ‘birther’ movement. And on that topic … ol’ Sheriff Joe Arpaio still contends, to this day, that Obama was not born in the U.S., and claims he will continue to investigate! We surely do have enough fools to go around in this nation. If Obama had even thought about doing more for racial equality, he would have been ostracized even more than he was by the GOP and Congress, especially after 2010. You know those desktop toys called “Newton’s Cradle”, with the balls hanging form strings … you pull the one on one side, let it go, and the one on the other side goes up by the same amount? Politics is much the same. We had a black president for 8 years, and now we have one who is as racist as Obama was black. Push-Pull. Sigh. I figure that if we doing speak out against injustice, then we are complicit. So, I speak out and tell those who don’t like it to feel free to walk away from me. I live with myself 24/7, and I need to respect that self more than I need others to like me. 😊
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Yeah, and Arpaio’s comments among other things are quite obnoxious and fallacious. Just because Obama’s dad was from Kenya doesn’t mean he was born in that country! Funny how those same people don’t bash Melania for not being from America originally. Even some of the Founding Fathers weren’t born in America like how Alexander Hamilton was born in St. Kitts & Nevis for example. While this doesn’t excuse Obama for not doing enough, I do see your argument about him facing even more backlash if he tried. Even his Trayvon Martin “That could’ve been my son” speech faced blowback from the racists out there. That’s a good comparison with Newton’s Cradle. It’s always push and pull while the status quo is unchanged no matter which party is in charge. I certainly speak out and done so in multiple posts on here. It’s a miracle that I haven’t received any major backlash in my blogs so far.
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The ultimate irony … or one of them, anyway … is that Michelle Obama was soundly criticized for wearing a sleeveless dress, while nobody says a word about all the nude photos of Melania floating about the Internet! Double standard? Nah, couldn’t be! 😉
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THANK YOU! That is such a huge double standard and quite an obvious one when you consider both first ladies.
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