Fear hides in my mind
No way to mold the unknown
I’ll hide behind smiles
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Fear hides in my mind
No way to mold the unknown
I’ll hide behind smiles
Ospreyshire's Realm 
Great poem. I know a lot of people who use smiles to hide darker emotions like fear and anger. Interesting coping mechanism.
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Thank you very much, Charles! That does describe me as well. It was a sad coping mechanism like when I was in school, I had a hard time talking to some of the counselors since some of them wouldn’t believe me especially if I got bullied. When I did express anger to defend myself, then I was treated like the bad guy even though I wasn’t being physical or swearing at anyone.
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It’s frustrating that anger is looked at as the sign of wrongdoing. Provocation doesn’t matter to some. They just see a temper flare and say ‘bad guy’.
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Thanks for agreeing. There was a time where I thought anger was some kind of sin because of how I was treated regardless if my anger was warranted or not. I would also see classmates or co-workers acting up at others (including myself), and they never got punished for their response.
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Been there. I think much of it involves how a person acts up and demonstrates anger. It seems to deal a lot with facial expressions, word usage, and body language. Someone angry and just standing there yelling won’t get in as much trouble as a person who is doing all of that plus cursing. At least that’s my experience.
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I can kind of see that being a factor. What does frustrate me is that those same rules of being punished for being angry doesn’t apply to others the way it does with me (pardon me sounding like I suffer from solipsism).
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I get it. There’s always that group that can get away with things that others can’t. It’s definitely frustrating and comes off as it being personal too. I don’t think those of us in the blamed/judged group always notice when we’re not alone in that treatment. Typically because it’s administered in a way that makes one feel like they’re the only one with such emotions and actions.
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Thanks for understanding. I know you mentioned being bullied before in one of our previous talks. Sometimes I wasn’t aware being isolated by the more psychological forms of bullying that happened to me. Shame how some of those feelings linger to the point where I assume others are planning something against me. Those were some good points you brought up though.
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The bullying we receive as kids does tend to linger. I think it’s because those are our formative years, so the effects can get built into our core.
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Very much so. Even the things I’ve been through as an adult still permeate my mind.
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Amazing haiku… and very relatable….
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Thank you very much, H. M. I’m glad you enjoyed this haiku.
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Great Haiku. As someone who is very much an introvert, I do tend to hide behind smiles so that people will eventually just leave me alone.
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Thanks, Jack. I’m glad you related to it. I’ve certainly felt the same way.
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You welcome, hope you’re doing ok during all of this
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I’m doing my best in this situation. I’ve been working a ton and doing some reading in my spare time.
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Thats good. Glad to hear that you even still have work.
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Thank you. I’m certainly thankful that I still have work in this climate.
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Hi Ospreyshire, just to let you know that I nominated you on my blog. I just wanted to let you know that I really appreciate the work you do… Keep it up! https://afrolegends.com/2020/05/26/vincent-ehindero-blogger-award-thank-you-dear-kitty/
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Oh, wow! Thank you so much for nominating me. I don’t believe I ever got this award before. That was kind of you.
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