On Worldliness (A Confession)

As you may or may not know, I haven’t been posting a lot recently on most of my blogs.

I’ve been incredibly busy with my jobs, living in a new town, and really working on my fiction projects. Besides the various life issues, I have to be honest with everyone.

I came to the realization that worldliness was a big flaw of mine.

Sure, something’s wrong when people focus way too much on celebrities and useless things. I’m sure we can all agree with that. However, my case was more peculiar.

Some of you know that I cannot stand so many forms of mainstream media. Movies, music, books, etc. I became immersed in indie movies, obscure anime, and other lesser-known things. I realized that I became worldly, but just through another avenue. This had to stop and I realized how much focusing too much on unimportant things for the longest time. I’ve been a fan of different things, and I’ve been hindered.

Seriously, I could still name-drop random bands on Tooth & Nail records over it’s history as a record label, yet I only recently knew who some local politicians are in my hometown.

I can tell you every aspect of Kimba the White Lion that a very certain movie shamelessly stole from, yet I didn’t know all the aspects of African history and what was stolen during the Scramble in that continent.

I could probably still remember all the characters in Marvel Vs. Capcom 2 (one of my favorite games growing up) and even mentioning which comic or game series they’re from, yet I didn’t take the DIY ethic seriously enough to make my OWN characters until the past 4 years of my life.

This was a ball and chain around my brain. I was captured and didn’t even know it.

Look, I’m not a role model or a guardian angel. I’ve screwed up multiple times. I don’t understand why some people would want to look up to me.

I apologize if this aspect of me rubbed off on anyone. However, I do not apologize for my hiatus across most of my blogs. For those that do like my content on here and elsewhere, then please be patient before I feel like I can do other things like my music, videography, and film reviews on my other blogs.

Although, you can check out my fiction blog as I serialize Gateway to the Empyrean. Just sayin’. Hahaha!

Okay, now back to being serious.

I had to make important changes in my life like researching various things in my own free time, creating more of my own stories, and cutting out anything that has distracted me. This partially means less movies and anime to watch for me. This means reading more nonfiction (the legit kinds). This means creating more than what I consume. Don’t get me started on how I feel about various fandoms and how those involve are squandering their potential for greatness. As much as I could point fingers at some people, I don’t want to focus on that. I blame only myself for not believing in me, having so much self-hate for most of my life, and for finding distractions to fill a void.

For the few of you that follow this or any of my blogs and read this. Thank you.

I need to become a better person. I need to do more important things in my life.

-Curtis

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My Reasons Why

My Reasons Why

This was a huge delay, but I need to make this post.

The wonderful Kimchisama created this award tag called My Reasons Why. This was innovative and something that can spread positivity around. I can certainly use some more substantive positivity, to be honest. Thanks, Kimchisama! I was honored when you nominated me and when you specifically mentioned how we had great conversations about different things on her blog.

Here are the rules for My Reasons Why:

1. Mention the person who nominated you

2. List 13 reasons why you keep going/living (This is borrowed from the book but I’m taking it the opposite direction).

3. Nominate 10 or more people to give their reasons why.

4. Use the picture that Kimchisama created as seen in this article.

Here we go!

1. My literary projects: When I got into writing stories 4 years ago, I realized that I had so much untapped creative potential. I finally got to release some of my books.

2. The Ospreyshire Project: This current spoken word/avant-garde music project I’ve been working on for 2 years has been a great creative progression.

3. My family: I’m glad that they support me and have helped me out.

4. My friends I still talk with: I’m glad to have some good friends who still want to reach out. Since I don’t have social media, this is huge and it lets me know who my real pals are.

5. Independent and foreign cinema: I’m glad there’s quality movies outside of Hollywood. That and I get to review them. Hee hee hee…

6. Books: I’m able to read things even if it’s mainly non-fiction.

7. Learning: Despite having a degree, I had to know that learning doesn’t end. That and I want to teach others about what I know.

8. Open-minded people: It’s amazing seeing people who actually care about others.

9. Miso soup: Okay, this is a superficial one, but I can’t say no to that soup especially on the rare occasions where I have Japanese food. Hahaha!

10. Being certified to teach adults: This was very unexpected, but I was able to get certified last December.

11. Geography: I enjoy learning about other countries and cultures.

12: The blogging community: I tackle tons of topics with all of my pages. It’s a miracle there are people actually interested in what I have to say.

13: My newfound assertiveness: I was always an internalizer, but blogging helped me express my feelings with people online and real life more often.

I hereby nominate the following:

The Zone of Nerders
Jenn
Xena
AfroSapiophile
Brandon Knoll
Elleguyence
Joshua Stamper
Madekesiworld
Mechanical Anime Reviews
Joshua Hedlund

Frustrations in Creativity

It has been a whirlwind of activity.

After working, I relaxed by watching a movie that I will review next month, but I had a realization.

Without going into much detail, things always change. Life can mess up the best laid plans. I had so many things set for several projects over the next few months, but other things happened that I need to address. Some of them have to do with my work and others involve dealing with other life matters that I need to take care of. Don’t worry. It’s nothing troublesome. It’s just busy stuff going on.

I won’t be posting as much content on this blog for the time being, so I can take care of things.

Pardon my dust.

Thank you.

One Year Later…(Or my first Wednesday NOT having to write or film anything)

This was a bit of fresh air for me.

I can’t believe that after one year of writing and filming my Katauta 52 videos, I completed my challenge. I’d like to thank anyone that has followed this year-long challenge.

So what do I do next?

That’s a good question.

I know what I want to do next for the Ospreyshire project, but I’m keeping that under wraps.

For my other projects, I want to release some of my written works that I’ve worked on for four years and to write more reviews fro the various movies and anime I watch.

Hopefully, things go well here.

An Avalanche of Creativity

This has been an eventful month for me to say the least.

In addition to my normal work life outside of blogging, I’ve been on the grind in regards to creating things. I just finished my Katauta 52 Project last Wednesday which was an accomplishment, been working hard at publishing some of my fiction projects, and I’ve been in talks with some people for some cool projects (stay tuned).

While it’s been fun creating things like music, literature, reviewing and other things, I do admit that I have gotten overwhelmed at times. Part of it is a huge drive with me trying to accomplish as many goals as possible this. Another aspect is me trying to find time whenever I can to make content here, my blogs, and other avenues. I just hope I can do everything that I can while getting enough sleep. Granted, two of my other blogs are on hiatus until some of that content will be on full display.

Have you ever felt this way before? I just don’t want to overwork myself.

Unique Blogger Award (My first award!)

Unique Blogger Award
Well, I legitimately didn’t see this one coming.

I was awarded this Unique Blogger Award from a blogger named Irina.

Thanks, Irina! I really appreciate it.

In order for this thing to work, I must do the following:

-Mention the blogger who nominated me while linking them.
-Nominate 8-13 other people.
-Answer questions from the person who nominated me.
-Give three questions to those I have nominated.

I know this award was for my work at Iridium Eye where I review lesser-known movies, documentaries, anime, short films, international movies, art house cinema and other films of that nature that aren’t getting the Hollywood treatment. http://iridiumeye.wordpress.com

I’d like to nominate the following bloggers:
1. Jeannette Jonic
2. Lauren Mann & The Fairly Odd Folk
3. Jon Spencer Reviews
4. Peach’s Almanac
5. Through Open Lens
6. Rodrovich’s Anime Blog
7. The Pantless Anime Blogger
8. Hikeminded
9. Mechanical Anime Reviews
10. Sarah Doughty

I hope you all appreciate that!

Here are the questions I was asked by Irina.

1. What post was your favorite to write and why?
Well, I have multiple blogs. I’ll give you an answer for all of my pages.

Ospreyshire’s Realm: It was when I made a video for the “My Heart Is A Crater” track from my debut EP “Verses Vs. Anhedonia”. Here’s a link to the video.

Autumn Peal Media (Photography/Videography): That’s tricky. It would be some of my Ecuador photos such as when I visited Quito or parts of the Andes Mountains.

C. M. B. Bell Fiction: That would be my currently ongoing cell phone novel Hollandus Landing. This has been a huge undertaking for me as I write this story with 40 different perspectives with 200 words or less per chapter.

Iridium Eye: My two favorite reviews I wrote would be a very close tie between the documentary Hate Crimes In The Heartland and the 60s anime series Kimba the White Lion.

Hate Crimes In The Heartland is the first documentary and American film I’ve given a 10/10 points to. It’s a very powerful film that deals with the tragedies of the Black Wall Street Massacre and the Good Friday Murders in Tulsa, Oklahoma. I thought it was amazing how they got survivors from the former event that happened in 1921 while also having a narrative that focuses not just on the racial impact, but also the economic one without politicizing everything.

Kimba the White Lion was a fun anime to review despite being way older than the other anime series I’ve critiqued. Even though it’s super old-school, I was really impressed with how much depth there was and how they handle various issues in a G-rated way. This and the last review allowed me to be very honest and brave with my opinions. I didn’t think it was a perfect series especially with some of the meddling in the English dub with a couple of storyline changes, but it was still a good watch. If you’ve heard of Kimba, yes…I do give my 2 cents on the infamous “Lion Controversy” as well. Feel free to check out these reviews and my other ones, too.

2. Is there a subject you would like to write about but haven’t quite figured out how to do it yet?

I’ve thought about a few, but I don’t know which blog I could post them on or what format it could be. I’ve thought of little essays involving media theories, connecting films and anime to various social issues (without looking like an SJW), some music-based posts, and even posting some poetry outside of my ongoing Katauta 52 Project.

3. What was the last random thing that made you happy?

This happened yesterday, actually. At my day job, I was feeling beat after doing so much work quickly to the best of my ability. One of my managers saw this and gave me an iced coffee as a token of appreciation. It really made me smile.

Now that I’ve answered Irina’s questions, I’ve got questions for those of you whom I nominated.

1. What was the bravest article you’ve posted on your blog(s)?
2. Which creative hobby would you most like to try? (keep the answers civil, please)
3. If your blog was a meal or dish, what would it taste like?

Alright. That was a fun post and this award did brighten my day despite me not posting about it sooner.

Have a wonderful day.

-Curtis

 

 

My Other Creative Projects: Hollandus Landing (A Cell Phone Novel)

I haven’t posted as much stuff on here besides the Katauta 52 series, but for those of you that don’t follow my other blogs, I’ll drop some extra knowledge for you.

As you may or may not know, I’m also a writer. I have a fiction blog which you can find at http://cmbbwrites.wordpress.com. It would be awesome if you subscribed to it, too. Right now, I’m swamped with Camp NaNoWriMo (a writing competition), but I’ve also been working on a cell phone novel.

This writing project in particular is called Hollandus Landing. It’s a serial story interweaving 40 different characters in this fictional Midwestern city as they live their lives while there’s also a secret that’s buried in the city. Most of the arcs are of the slice-of-life variety, but I use meta-narratives and parallel stories to intersect elements of the real hidden danger with other characters creating various art forms that directly or indirectly involve said secret.

By the way, each chapter is 70-200 words long. You can read some of them on your work break or whatnot. That and I’m over 220 chapters at the time of this post

Check out the first chapter here: https://cmbbwrites.wordpress.com/2017/05/17/hollandus-landing-chapter-1/