Proving My Humanity

This is just a personal post that I felt a bit compelled to write.

I’ve been talking about some harsh subjects with some friends and some fellow bloggers especially when it came to race. No, the fact that this is Black History Month was entirely irrelevant although one could argue with it being unintentional subtext.

Some of you that have read some of my previous posts may have seen me mention about reading some historical subjects especially when it comes to Black and Native American history. It was shocking with all the things I’ve read about that were well-researched and it frustrates me how a lot of this stuff isn’t talked about in history books. Race relations and multiculturalism are subjects that’s been in my heart for a while.

It has showed up in so many of my blogs. For example, I got video of a biracial poet who talked about growing up as a minority on Autumn Peal Media and Vimeo. In Iridium Eye, I’ve reviewed multiple documentaries dealing with that subject and I’ve reviewed movies that have anti-racist metaphors. With my fiction projects that I’ve publicly shown and the ones I haven’t revealed yet. I enjoy using protagonists of all ethnic groups in several stories because I like diverse casts, writing characters that break stereotypes, and I would love it if some reader says “This is awesome! This hero is well-written and looks like me!”. If that happens, I’ve done my job. Well, that and not making race the main crux of a plot. People should write characters of a certain ethnic group and not an ethnic character. There’s a huge difference.

I had a conversation with a friend where I opened up some of my feelings of having self-hatred. I’ve been bullied during my younger years and part of it was because of some racial stuff later on in life. Whenever I call them out, they get so defensive and are full of denial. Every day (even today), I’ve felt like I had to prove my humanity to show that I’m just as competent as most people. More often than not, I had to work multiple jobs and study harder than anyone else to show that I’m a human worthy of respect and dignity. It does give me hope that my friends see me as someone worthy and they were able to listen to me.

Granted, I’m far from perfect and I’ve certainly stumbled. I have been slowly beginning to love myself even though it’s been a gradual process. Blogging in all of my pages has given me more confidence and a chance to show my knowledge in multiple subjects.

Sorry for rambling, everyone. Thanks for reading this.

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ZAP Records Friends Vol. 3 Compilation [FREE Download!]

What’s up, everyone?

ZAP Records has released their third compilation in their Friends Series. There are all kinds of bands including some of my own labelmates from all over the world releasing current and brand new exclusive tunes including this guy! I debuted a new song called “Emancipating Spark” which will be only on the compilation and nowhere else.

What are you waiting for? It’s a free download with 15 songs on it with numerous genres represented.

Also, check out ZAP Records at http://facebook.com/zaprecords.

-Curtis

Ospreyshire Origins: You Are A Constellation

The “you” has a dualistic meaning which is intentional. It can be God for anyone into theology, but it can also mean a good friend who’s telling me to snap out of my funk. It’s that universal nature that I wanted to add into it if anyone can relate to this poem. Personally, a few friends have really helped me stay sane and don’t even realize it. I know most people don’t care including some of my friends.

-Curtis

Friendship Friday: George Hugo

http://georgehugo.blogspot.com/
https://zaprecords.bandcamp.com/album/zap-009-rainwet-morning

This week’s edition of Friendship Friday involves George Hugo.

He’s a musician from South Africa. I was introduced to him through our mutual friend Dave from The Old-Timers, Their Throats Are Open Tombs, and the founder of ZAP Records. George is a really cool guy that makes some nice folk tunes. He also just told me about his photography on his Blogspot, so I’ll be promoting both links of his. George Hugo’s debut EP Rainwet Morning is available for free or pay-what-you-want on ZAP Records’ Bandcamp page.

-Curtis

Friendship Friday: Oceans & Oceans

My pick for this week’s Friendship Friday is Oceans & Oceans!

I’ve known them for years and they have an awesome live show. They are a humble bunch that make some fantastic genre-blending music. If you ever get the chance to see them play, then please go. You won’t be disappointed.

Check out their split with fellow Elginites Home Burial here (it’s free or pay-what-you-want) : https://oceansandoceans.bandcamp.com/releases

-Curtis

Friendship Friday: James Silas

This Friendship Friday post is about a British buddy of mine by the name of James Silas.

He’s an experimental folk artist from Newcastle-via-Manchester, England. I’ve known him since he was in his previous band Watercolour and enjoyed his music since then. His first solo album The Man in the Snow White Cell is quite good and it was recorded with James in a makeshift sensory-depriving “prison” where he recorded all the instruments.

Check out his stuff at http://jamessilas.com.

-Curtis

Friendship Friday: Fafhrd

https://fafhrd.bandcamp.com/

Meet Connor Eck AKA Fafhrd.

He’s an experimental musician from my home state of Illinois. I’ve known him for years ever since he told me about his band Suzy LaRue & The Ruthless Ooze when they were starting out as a band. Fafhrd does a lot of synthesizer, dark ambient, and even some avant-pop based pieces across his discography. Most of his albums are free or pay-what-you-want on his Bandcamp page.

-Curtis

Shout-Out: Jeannette Jonic

http://jeannettejonic.blogspot.com/2017/02/the-victors-blade-update-book-1-draft.html

Sorry for the lack of updating here at Ospreyshire Central. I’m working on some plans to post things more regularly.

Without further ado, my good friend Jeannette Jonic just finished writing the first draft of her debut novel The Victor’s Blade. She’s been working on this project for years, and I’m glad that she’s able to work on this epic story.

Congrats, Jeannette! Keep on being awesome!

-Curtis M.