A sound mind is rare
When there’s so many emotions that can scare
Overactive imaginations that are everywhere
Tag Archives: Poetry
Tranquility in the Rain
As my head hits the pillow, I hear the symphony of raindrops
Landing on the roof
After several days without the skies pouring down, it was a welcome change of tune
I imagined each drop being an agent in purifying me despite being inside
Washing away the negativity as well as clearing my mind of such was something I wished would happen
There was something so calming hearing the rain landing on the ground
Yearning for a Better Future
I wondered if my efforts would amount for something bright
Not to be a millionaire or famous, but just something where I can prosper
This year, I certainly had my concerns and fears with the obvious
I’d be lying if I said I had none of those things
Everyone certainly is stressed at different levels, and I don’t blame them
Work, some classes, and my own independent studies gave me things to do
Okay, I do enjoy international films, but binge watching wasn’t a top goal
Sometimes I wonder if I’d be doing things on a bigger stage with my creative works
Not world tours or TV interviews, obviously
But something constructive as well as being able to help others
I don’t know what the future looks like, but I want to do what I can to make sure it’s good
Another Untitled Haiku
I don’t have the words
All the time to fully say
Something meaningful
10K+ Views Pt. II: Q&A Answers
Here’s the moment you’ve all been waiting for. I get to answer the questions I got last week for my 10K+ view milestone!
“What was going through your mind when you wrote all those 455 posts? I mean did you ever run out of ideas or did you always had a topic in your mind(if yes you did run out of ideas, what did you do to bring yourself back up)?”
from Eggsandwich04
Well, I certainly have more than 455 posts at this point in time now. Haha! Okay, in all seriousness, my mind has been at different points when I made certain posts. I mainly focused on the Ospreyshire project for my spoken word stuff with the poems, recordings, and videos. I expanded to talking about news events and my opinions about different things. I ranged from sad, angry, serious, and occasionally comedic if the time calls for it. However, I think most of my poetry tends to lead towards sad or angry in hindsight.
I can’t say I’ve ran out of ideas since new ones pop up. Some of them will affect this blog since I still have more things to do with what Ospreyshire was made for.
“Who would say is or makes your blog audience?”
from Khaya Ronkainen
That’s a question that I legitimately thought about. I guess the people who I know mostly view and comment on my posts are usually other poets, some bloggers that cover serious issues, and anibloggers given my prowess in multiple blogs. Funny how I have that kind of crossover appeal with different types of bloggers.
“Do you have any favorite poets or collections of poetry?”
from Eggheadluna
Some of my favorite poets include Langston Hughes, Buddy Wakefield, The Last Poets, and so much more.
“Do you think you’ll still be blogging in five years and if so, care to guess how many views you’ll reach by then?”
from Lynn Sheridan
I believe I’ll still be blogging in the next 5 years. I don’t know if I’d be working on multiple blogs at once, but I could see myself managing at least one of them that far in the future. If I were to gauge how many views I could get then, I’d say 20-30K by then. It took 4 years to get 10K here, so I don’t know.
“What do you think is the best story you’ve written?”
from Scott of Mechanical Anime Reviews
Hooray! I’m glad there are people who know about my fiction/author exploits! That is a really tough question. Hollandus Landing was a very important book for me since it was the first time I showed off my cell phone novel projects let alone a full story to everyone as I serialized it live back in 2017. Another important story I wrote would have to be in the Revezia series like Praxis of the Disenchanted or the Electrum Trilogy. By the way, you can get Hollandus Landing for free or donation!
“It seems that you still have some hangups about yourself as it pertains to anger about self-worth based on what others have done to your self-esteem, so having said that, has this blog done more to aid you in self reflection and instilled in you a true sense of self worth or are you letting others get into your head and instill their thoughts, their prejudices, their biases as it pertains to you being bi-racial?”
from Shelby Courtland
Yeah, I still struggle with these issues, but I do appreciate you checking up on me. It definitely shows with some of my poems and some of the news stories that touched a nerve with me whether it’s racial issues or when I did that infamous rant against a certain movie last year. One of my weaknesses is that I can care too much about what others think of me. It’s NOWHERE near as bad as when I was younger, but it still slips in from time to time.
This blog has certainly helped with self-reflection and catharsis. I am slowly rebuilding that self-worth that was diminished after dealing with bullies and people getting away with their abusive behaviors even when I would call them out. There are times where I wished I was more aware about subtle forms of derogation like projection, dog whistles, or low-key insults when I was much younger (I guess taking a psych class might have helped for some of that in hindsight). Speaking as someone who is biracial, I did get my wake-up call years ago about how those who are mixed tend to be treated whether they have a white parent or not. Knowing about that reality certainly allowed me to do my own research about things I wasn’t taught (various historical events mainly like Black Wall Street being a major one for me then). At the same time, I’ve had a bad habit of having to prove my humanity, competency, and authenticity to anyone regardless of my ethnic background whether online or offline. I’m not singling anyone out because I’ve sadly had that mindset with anyone I communicate with. Getting rid of these prejudices, biases, or even assumptions out of my head has been quite the task. Hopefully, this answers your question.
“If you could witness the writing of a poetry collection (or novel), whose would it be, and why?”
from Ashley Capes
If I had to witness the creation of such books, I would’ve liked to have been there to have seen the process of the Circle trilogy from Ted Dekker (I read all the books years ago) or if I were to cheat with manga, I’d say Hikaru no Go. Wow, I sound like such a stan with the second example.
Thank you so much for your questions. I still have something else planned for this milestone!
Concerts Are Necrotized
I certainly dodged a bullet
When I threw in the towel as a live musician
Steams flow in digital portals
Siphoning all potential means to live
Phones in front of people’s faces
Apathy reigning over the live singer
Then there were 19 degrees of isolation
As festivals disappeared and possibly on life support until further notice
If I have shed my “music man” identity, then this was the perfect time to do so
I’d rather be known by my other artistic endeavors, writings, or my positive actions
All those who bullied me in the past for being a music fan deserve to shut the Tartaros up
Barking First and Loudest
A platoon of pointing fingers arrive with a wall of megaphones
They sound like several packs of dogs to me
Psychologically scalded by jeremiads and chastisements
I’ve been on the receiving end of those accusations
Regardless if I had a halo or horns in those situations
How short-sighted of them
I never tried to be a god as their pettiness is on full display
I couldn’t always fight back, but for most of my life I hid onto this resentment
The same things they’ve accused me of are the reasons why they barked in the first place
That or they defend those who don’t deserve such rhetorical bulwarks
Keep barking, your vices and those you stan(d) for are all too obvious.
I Thought My Voice Was Too Small
Even in these four years of consistent blogging as well as an extension of my spoken word/musical moniker, I didn’t expect to have an impact even if it wasn’t overreaching.
I am still quite small in this microcosm and thought my voice would match the lack of height.
Perhaps my voice was bigger when I see and hear responses.
Replies from around the world have given me solace.
Inspiration takes wing for those covering multiple topics.
Maybe they soared like the ospreys in my moniker.
Maybe I spoke louder than I thought.
Then again, everything sounds louder when one has been silenced for so long.
Selective to be Shallow?
Some pressing issues
Selective activists scream
In pure convenience
Has Anyone Seen My Joy?
I’ve been through tumultuous times before
But this year has been affecting everyone
Horrific memories flood my brain
Even if those years were objectively “better” compared to now
No justice has been done
My smile has greatly diminished whether I use it to hide or not
My passions have been downplayed
One interest has only been there, so I can finish something
Have I become a drone or rather would it be better as such if I was?
I do my best to mention serious topics as well as supporting multiple righteous causes
Do people even care?
I want to have joy again, but it’s on life support.
